Open The Curtain

If God loves me as much as the Bible says he does, why can’t I feel it?

This thought came to me. (Open the curtain)

What curtain? 

My mind took me to Golgotha. I saw myself looking up at Jesus hanging on the cross. He was struggling to breathe. As He took His last breath, a drop of clear fluid fell in slow motion towards the ground. The onlookers scattered. It was enormous by the time it hit the ground. It caused the land to rumble. Suddenly, there was darkness. I heard the people around me gasp. The people were in a panic, and a soldier said, My God, My God, this man was indeed the Messiah. My Lord, have mercy on us!

There was a loud crack of thunder. Lightning bolts lit up the sky, and I could see the fear of death in the eyes of those near me. It seemed as if the thunder was angry. The ground began to shake. Someone screamed, RRRRUUUNNN, but no one did. Fear had a hold on each one of them. All of a sudden, there was a massive gust of wind. People were screaming and looking for a way to save themselves. People ran to the cross to hang on. Others held on to the ones who were holding on to the cross. They had just put to death the ONE who came to save them, yet they ran to the cross to save themselves.

The wind grew more potent by the minute. I heard a ripping sound. Light began to shine through the darkness and chaos that occurred when Jesus let out His last breath. When I looked up, I saw what appeared to be two sheets flapping in the wind. I am pretty sure it was the sheet that caused the ripping sound. I was staring at the remnants when I remembered a scripture about a curtain torn in two. Mark 15:38, The temple curtain was torn from top to bottom Luke 23:45 for the sun stopped shining. The curtain of the temple had torn in two.

As I drove home, I had an epiphany about my question. I do not feel God’s love because it is not a feeling. God’s love is in my heart. I love with His love. How can anyone possibly experience what real love is by my love alone?

Imagine the ones who have never felt loved completely. No one’s love alone has the power to give others what they are searching for, need, crave, or yearn. Only God’s love can satisfy. When a person comes to this realization, love as they know it will never be the same.

A Cry for Help

My Son’s Prayer:

Dear Lord, please let this blessing come. You know how bad I need an opportunity for a better job. You know the work I put in and how they’re doing me. You know I’ll work. You know ill show up on time. In a year and a half, I’ve clocked in right on time. Once this year I have clocked in 5 mins early. Dear Lord, please help me all I need is an opportunity I’ll do the rest.

My response:

Jesus,

You said in Matthew 7:7~Ask and it will be given to you; seek and you will find; knock and the door will be opened to you.
I ask you, Jesus, to douse _______ with blessings galore. He has really worked hard to do what’s right. Whether he knows it or not he has a good heart. He is still learning how to love and to be patient. ______ has such a heavy load on his shoulders. Bless him and his family to the point they know there has to be a God.

Holy Spirit,

Teach them to love one another, to encourage one another, to help each other have the best day possible. Unharden their hearts from things that have hurt them in the past. Give them the wisdom to make good decisions and to let their spirits come to the surface and deflate the ego that is making them miserable. Pour out your mercy that you so graciously give each of us every day. Wake them up! Bring them into an awareness of your presence and love. Lavish them with your grace, your ocean of grace.  Some people only take sips here and there of your grace. Lord. turn them around so that they can see that you have been there along. Lead them into waves, drench them with your grace.

Jesus,

I thank you for the holy power of Your name. I know how much you love us. My heart’s desire is for all your children will open their hearts and hand over to you, the things that weigh them down. Insecurities, doubts, regrets, rebellion, heartache, negativity, unforgiveness, failure, selfishness, lack of self-discipline. Increase every area of their life, joy, peace, gratefulness, kindness, gentleness, generosity, helpfulness, thoughtfulness, self-discipline, faithfulness. Allow them to receive and experience your love for them.

Jesus, may they live the life that YOU died for them to have!!